Why is my life still in chaos despite my best efforts to consciously create?
Despite what you may want to happen, there is a delay in most of your manifestations. As a result, what you are living today is mostly a result of what you set into motion from the past; and what was set into motion was based on your past thoughts (conscious and subconscious), actions, feelings, focus, etc…
This is something to pay particular attention to when using the law of attraction to consciously create a different reality. This is not a universe of instantaneous manifestations,